How many of these posts do I have now? Lol.. I start a new job tomorrow. Its part time but it pays well. Money to pay back hubby for his phone!

Since Tuesday I have been feeling like I’m living in third person watching someone else live my life. It seems with every other step I take I say the wrong thing, do the wrong thing or just piss someone off by breathing. Even when I try to apologize, I’m not able to begin let alone finish. I’m so pissed about an event at work and everyone the few I confide in about it say I’m in no wrong that the other person is to blame, yet again when I try to apoligize I get cut off and treated like shit even more.

I go through fits where I feel like I have a lot to say and want to write everything down, but obviously I don’t. I don’t even come to my blog every day let alone write in it.

I have to say I am appalled by the unwillingness of people to  help out. Yes, these are hard times I am aware of that, but are they too hard to even open your heart to someone who is begging on Facebook, Myspace and Twitter for support for someone very special in their life that has sores on their body that are diagnosed as cancer? Is it so hard to open you heart when I say that they’re on this persons face. Would pictures that make you sick to your stomach make you help? Would telling you who it is help? Why are people so fucking caught up in their own lives to even just say “I’d love to help, but I cannot at this time. I will keep you in my prayers.” Seriously! Not one peep from anyone. The only people who seem to care are those who have seen how fast I crumbled at work and sobbed uncontrollably in my coworkers arms.

Not one ounce of sympathy. You should all be ashamed.

So, earlier this week I came out of work sat in my car and started it up, ready to drive home. I decided I might want to stop and get something on my way to my doctor appointment so I got out and went to my trunk to get my purse (I leave it in my trunk because we get searched when leaving work and I hate other people in my purse). My heart raced as I see another cars liscense plate snug in my bumper. Other coworkers were coming out of work now andsee what happened. I got into my car and pulled it forward to assess any damage to my bumper. Sure enough there are nice screw size holes in my paint. I called Hubby and asked how to make a claim and he said to call insurance, number on our policy.

I called liberty mutual right away and they suggested calling an officer to come into the store with me in case they get hostile. The sheriff officer came and looked up who owned the car and we went into work and paged for them. One of my sweetest coworkers came forward and was petrified. She felt so unbelievably bad! We agreed that it was best it was with people we liked and know instead of a stranger. What happened was she drove her husbands car to work and it being a manual she forgot to lift the emergency break to prevent it from rolling. Poor girl.

Liberty mutual set me up to take my car in to gerber on Thursday for estimate and a rental car. My bumper already had a ding in. It from a separate incident that he said they couldn’t redo because of how they could repair the collision marks on the one little section. I hoped they would have been able to but I understood. Enterprise came with a 2009 Chevrolet Cobalt as my rental car. That car was so fun to drive! I was sad that I’d have to give it back.

Friday I worked then we went to Best Buy to buy our phones and once I dropped Hubby off at work, Gerber called him. Apparently they were able to do the whole bumper and fix the existing damages not related to the incident. Happy Jacklyn! I gave the man back the keys to the Cobalt and went home. Talk about going above and beyond!

Good gravy do I love my new phone. Thank you Hubby.

I have not come full circle as of late, but I feel like I’ve come close. The Hubby and I have been talking a lot about what we want as far as a family, and when. No we’re not trying yet, no we’re not already expecting. I want to nip those thoughts right now. We do know when we will start and stuff like that, just not yet. It has helped out our relationship to agree upon a day when we’ll start and decided upon that for what time of year we’d like to have our kid. I know it’s a more OCD method, but that’s how I got him to agree. lol We do have our names picked out already, but we won’t be sharing those until we find out what we’d be having. Again, not any time soon.

I applied to get a 2nd job (really 4th, but since two are contract, they don’t really count) and after sitting in the 3.5 hour orientation, the HR lady told me they couldn’t actually offer the job to me because I previously worked for the company and the manager at that time decided to label my records as not able for rehire. Bullshit. So, legally they have to pay me for that time I sat there thinking I had the job, so I am going to call them tomorrow and as again for money. If worse comes to worse they’ll have to pay me out of petty cash. I have lawyer friends, but I don’t want it to come to that over <$30. It’s the principle of the thing though. I am more peeved because she knew before the orientation even started that something was wrong, yet she didn’t tip me off until after. Needless to say I do not care to work for them since they were so freaking dishonest.

Things at my regular job is going well. I actually worked today at a different location to help out since they have been backed up for like 2 months. It was a nightmare. I appreciated the hours, don’t get me wrong, but I do not feel compelled to offer to do that for a very long time. lol. I’ve been busting my hump at work though when I have been there. I have had a lot of crap going on that has made me miss a day here and there. I need to get back to not missing any days of work. I really want to show them that I’m an asset. Though when things look up and up for the making of the family, I will be mildly restricted. Oh well. I will still be able to work hard, just not lift heavy things and such. It will be nice though since I’ll be hanging Maternity clothes, and have first dibs into stuff to cover my baby bump as it grows. And since my dear friend hangs the baby clothes, she has been setting aside things she’d think I’d like so I can look at them. Her station is right next to mine, so that helps me peek too. I enjoy working there a lot, after I initially quit and got back into my groove. The only change I’d care to make from here on out would be to team up on kids clothes with my friend, but I don’t see that happening since I’m so good at hanging Women’s and Maternity. Which is nice.

We don’t have any official plans for the holidays this year, Thanksgiving and Christmas. We usually go to our friend’s house, but since I’ve started getting reacquainted with my family up north, we may end up going up there for Thanksgiving. They do Secret Santa on Christmas, and since our names haven’t been in the drawing for years, there’s no point in going this year. Thanksgiving is really the fun holiday too. We’d just have to be home somewhat early so that we can go out for our annual Black Friday shopping. If I have that day off that is. No biggie if I don’t. Hubby always finds good deals.

Oh yeah! Yesterday we went to Best Buy to buy the PreSell on our new phones! Motorola Droid’s for each of us. I am so excited. They will come in on Friday November 6th, so less than a week… Which is good as we’re already dying to get our hands on them. Excited really doesn’t cover the elation in our eyes when we think about them, nor the drool on our chins. lol! They will be our Christmas Presents to each other. We will have our Christmas Tree set up of course because it’s our First Christmas in our Owned Home. I am excited to decorate my new house. That’s for sure! As much as we hate the snow, I do hope it snows this year so that we can see our lovely house with snow on it. Love Love Love!

Well, for those who have read this whole mesh of thoughts, I thank you!