Don’t you hate it when you invite people to an event and they wait until the last effing minute to RSVP! Or they refuse to fill out the RSVP card at all because they want it as a momento – EFF THAT! Fill that crap out and mail it the hell back!!!!

 

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Anyway – since watching the movie Juno, Andrew has been OBSESSED with the opening song “All I Want is You” by Barry Loise Polisar. He wants it played at the wedding – but it’s so redneck! LOL I think it’s a sweet song but am trying to figure out when we should have it played, randomly, during a specific event, or what…

Our neighbors just got home from camping this weekend, and as soon as they got out of the truck the thunder started and it’s POURING rain… Thanks guys!!!!!!!!!!!!

Anyway – This blog has been a draft for quit a while now – it’s time to publish it.

Imagine it with a round diamond as the center stone instead of the marquise.

In the midst of cooking dinner our neighbor came over to show off their new puppy *not named yet* and I left the pasta cooking, without realizing I left a cardboard box on the stove. There was no fire or anything, but when I got back inside I got a nice lecture about how you should never leave a box on the stove because this one almost caught fire. Maybe, Just Maybe, someday, I’ll be able to do something right.

For approved registered users, you can read my private post I just posted about why I can’t wait until July 6th – the day when all of this wedding ish will be over.

I was on the radio again this morning – wedding planning was the topic and I have been very angry lately becuase I feel one person has been trying to sabotage the wedding – it makes me sick when I think about what this person has done. I asked if I should talk to this person and I was told yes. The  problem is that I do not want to ruin the relationship but want to simply tell this person that what they’ve done has upset me a lot and I feel it is completely rude and uncalled for. I am sure I’ll think of something.

Since my whole side of the family is mad at me for something I did I have decided not to have any bridal showers or a bachelorette party. One friend told me in regards to a possible gift card from a place I used to work “no one seemed to want to contribute” I thinik that sums it all up… I made a mistake and chose a smaller place where not as many peoplle could attend AFTER the save-the-date announcements went out and people feel uninvited and honestly they are… but not intentionally. I do have a defense though – they have not once called me even to say hello in the 3 years I’ve lived away – the ones who have kept contact and been genuinly interested in my life are the ones that were invited and made sure to be on the list. One person told me that they were not sure if they were going to come because they  know what happened to the other members of the family and if that’s how you feel don’t come – don’t waste our time and don’t freaking come! I honestly think you not coming would hurt less – I could take that as closure and just forget about our past and move on. I wouldn’t wake up with sore arms because I dreamed I was trying ro shake the TRUTH into you. I would know in my heart that this relationship doesn’t stand a chance and it is not my fault. And finally I would be able to stop crying – crying is weakness and I am tired of being weak – I am tired of feeling worthless becuase I didn’t just lose you i lost my whole family because of you – and you’ve lied to everyone so that they think I am the bad guy.

Once this damn wedding is over I don’t have to feel my heart sink when people don’t ask me why I don’t know if you’re coming – and don’t I want you to walk me down the aisle. The more I think about it, I will have a happier wedding without you there. 

But I’m too chicken shit to telll you that – so instead of being a grownup i’m going to sit here and let you trample over my feelings by putting it off to the last minute if you’re going to RSVP yes or no – and then worry like hell how you’re actually going to act if you do come.

If I hear R Kelley’s Bump ‘N Grind one more time, the game’s getting muted.

Anyway, I went with Sarah this evening and got my nails done. Partially for the Wedding, I want to start figuring out if I want them plain French Tip, or with a stripe of color, or tips in color. The color I chose is too bright. I could possibly put a very pale clear coat over the blue to tone it down, then it would be perfect probably. We’ll see. Then we went to Olive Garden. I love eating at Olive Garden.

We received our first real wedding gift today! Andrew doesn’t want to know what it is until after we’re married. He told me that I am not allowed to look at the registry anymore either. I just hope we put all of what we wanted on there. This is so exciting because it’s getting so close! We are missing some RSVP’s that we would like to have, but there is technically over one month for people to RSVP. I know that certain people are waiting until the last possible minute to RSVP – whatever.

By the way, I will not ever watch Juno again. Normal people would and should think it’s great, I however, am abnormal and do not think it’s great at all.

In all it’s glory and hilariousness – absolutely pisses me off and makes me want to beat sensless cerain people.

 

To the YMCA that is… at 5 AM! I woke up at 4AM to potty and was having iffy to BAD dreams the whole time I was sleeping so I wanted to keep a little more time to sleep. I love sleep!

I got a call today from the HR Director from the South Center TRU. They offered me an interview for Monday morning. I took the 7AM slot so I could miss less work. We’ll see how it goes,

I have decided that I am going to go to the YMCA before work and after work. I will Eliptical in the mornings (it’s harder to find two of those together – I go with Sarah in the evenings), and we will Treadmill in the evenings.

I will be able to read the books on my sidebar if I go twice a day. LOL Less than two months until the wedding and I have some serious work to do. I ate plain turkey meatballs for dinner and they were delicious! I put BBQ sauce on Andrew’s so that it had some flavor for him.

Anyway – I am very tired and get even more tired when I think about how I have to wake up at 5:30… one to one and a half hours before I generally wake up. YIKES!

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